it changes your energy. you do it for the way it effects you. >> jon: and did that then -- did you find people believed you to be more fragile? >> yeah. i mean that's a great way to put it. provided a lot of fragility. >> jon: and that -- when you were done with that process -- >> yeah. >> jon: how do you come back? >> therapy. [ laughter ] >> jon: it stays with you. >> it does. this film particularly i play a -- you saw a clip so i don't have to say but it was a really unique situation. so there was a voice, there was a walk, a talk a whole thing. it takes a while to lose the muscle memory. i stayed in character the whole time. >> jon: at night, like when you are not on set? >> you can't really let go of that. you are constantly in that place. at least i was. i needed to be there in order to do what i had to do. >> jon: did you not -- the hardest thing i think for me other than obviously being a good actor -- [laughter] would be when not working, not doing foodstuff. so much of my downtime is food based. it